Los Daddy's Journal

Not Again.....LOL.....

2009-12-27T19:22:00.002-06:00

Yeah, it's that time to go back to work. I had a great Christmas. Just hanging out with family and whatnot. Seeing the look on others' faces, as they open their gifts from me. That's the stuff. I, in turn received some good tidings and joy too, so I can't complain. I also have a few things on the horizon too, on the entertainment and book fronts. But more on that later.

I did do a funny thing though. I left my good winter coat at Chubbie's parents about 3 hours away. They said they are gonna mail it, (which I said wasn't necessary), but at any rate, an expense not warranted or needed. Other than that, it was stellar having all that time off. Mainly, I slept in and relaxed, watched a basketball game and went shopping the day after (gift card redemptions, you know....)

It was fun hanging out today, but my body (psychologically mostly) started aching at the anticipation of going back to work, probably a little bit of a panic attack, but it's all good. I have been watching some Sanford & Son DVDs, that was a show from my youth that used to crack me up. I am hoping that it doesn't get too cold this winter. Last winter was totally nuts, a huge road of solid ice, covered by deceptive powder snow, ahh gotta love that midwest weather. I am all toasty inside.

On The Regular........

2009-11-01T19:39:00.003-06:00

Well, it was Halloween weekend and it was actually on the weekend, so bonus for me, right? It was a fun time, We were actually on our way to a show and we had to go through this fair type thing, where everyone was in costume, it was rather cool. They had a cabaret fashion show with everyone in drag and that shit was funny as hell! At least from what I saw.

Chubbie & I dressed up as Spy Vs. Spy and it came out good. Haven't really had time to work on other projects such as my poetry trilogy, but that will be worked on fiercely from now on. At least for one of the books. I am also fervently, writing new material, that no one has seen. I may even keep it secluded, until I release it, since I am doing all the editing myself, so there you have that.

I have Christmas shopping squared away. The Hallowicked show was good too on Saturday. Also, the Lions got tapped again. A "close" loss, but a loss nonetheless. I am trying to blog every 3 days, even no matter how trivial, like this blog, for instance, LOL! Also, I am nursing a lot of internal, emotional pain right now, that I don't care to talk about.

If this year's holiday season is great, as I am predicting, I will consider this a great year......

A Kick In The Ass.....

2009-10-24T23:49:00.003-05:00

Hello bloggers and bloggettes! It has been quite some time for yours truly and I must say I am doing good. I have been at a steady job since February. This economy was brutal to me over the past two years. Man it was hard to find a job, but I have to give the credit to God for pulling me through.

That trilogy is kicking my ass. My word processor broke down, finally, after 14 years. We had seen some rough times, me and that WP. Well, this new job treats me well, so I can't complain. I am paid every week and for the most part, have all weekends and requests off, so it's going well.

I been hitting a lot of shows and partying like crazy, LOL! However with partying comes inspiration, especially with all the people I meet. If I am lucky, I will have one of the trilogy books out by next summer and then release the other two the following year. With this economy the way it has been, money is kinda tight, am I right?

There has been some bad news this year for me, at least emotionally. I was on myspace and was looking up something about art in Ann Arbor or something or other and an old girlfriend's profile showed up. I never even knew she had a myspace. Well, she is doing well, not that it is any of my business, nor should I care. But seeing her again, after not seeing her for over a decade, I went into a nervous breakdown, at least emotionally. Still, as beautiful as ever, with everything she has always wanted and I should be happy for her, but I am more mad at myself for even taking time out to even look at her profile. I have got to be the dumbest mother fucker out there to even believe she would ever give a shit as to what or how I am doing. However, I must look at it for inspiration, with me being a writer and all, no?

I had asked opinions of other folks and they have told me that I was an idiot to even give her a second thought. Not that she did anything for me to feel this way, it is just me kicking myself in the ass, for acknowledging anything I felt for her, especially since all this time has past. Ere go, I kick myself in the ass, in order to move forward.

With that said, things have had their ups and downs too. We have had our gas off since July and it sucks taking them cold showers in the fall, let me tell you. However, we have finally got it paid and the gas, and cold showers and cooking with be in full swing by Friday. My girlfriend has been a real trooper, even in our financial hardships, she had kept chin up and nose to the grindstone, no regrets, no complaints. It is amazing that we have been together for 12 years and we still consider ourselves a team, but in this world, we all gotta stand together, unless we fall.

I thought I'd have lots more to say and for the most part I think I have said it all, so far....except that for anyone who has or will ever read my blog, to please check out my poetry on my site, it has been and always will be my passion.

It has been a long time......

2008-10-21T22:41:00.003-05:00

Well, this economy sucks! I am temping now, but even that isn't too lucrative. However, I am not in too much of a funk because I have been praying and reading the bible, and it is really helping out alot. I have also been inspired to write more. We are also in the midst of a presidential election and you know they all promise that or that. Also, they promise to create job and whatnot, blah, blah, blah....

Forgive my rant, I know I am not making any sense, but I have to turn it over God and know he will handle it the way he sees fit. However, I encourage us all to help each other. If a friend needs your help, invite him/her to dinner and let them crash on your couch, any help will do. In my case, it's just to talk, you know? That goes along way. Also, for any reading this and you have faith in God, remember me in your prayers and if you comment, I will remember you also.

I know with faith, desrire, and devotion to God, we can get through these hard times.

It's All Good.....

2008-04-06T20:40:00.002-05:00

Been just chillin'. I had today off and just lounged around. We supposedly have some folks going around to our stores tomorrow and my GM is trying to score brownie points I am sure, so I have to deal with that bullshit tomorrow and I will definitely let you know how it turns out. It's not really to upsetting, but I just dont like this mother fucker, as a person, so that's why the anxiety (plus I have panic attacks to boot) But, honestly, I know it will be OK.

I am trying to relax and been working on my next project, as you all know it's that trilogy. Man, I cant wait to get this published....

Man Oh Man.....

2008-03-29T22:28:00.002-05:00

I almost has to beat a mother fucker's ass today. Normally, I don't use such graphic language, but this guy really burned me up. All over something so trivial, that in the long run wouldn't hurt anyone at all. I guess what I am trying to say is that I believe that there is no one over or beneath another person. If you really look at it, the only thing seperating any or all of us in today's society is money.

Furthermore, the only reason people act the way they do, especially in a corporate setting is money, or fear of losing it "for themselves"! So, does anyone in the workforce actually care for their coworkers or their families, hell no! We are all out to get what we want to get and step on whomever we can to get it.

I guess what I am trying to say is that we should all treat each other good or at least decent, because after all, is the job our life and are we married to the job or our lives? I move to say that my life is much more important than a job anyday and there is no one above me that doesn't bleed, piss, or shit just like I do! In retrospect though, I need to calm down and relax, in the long run, my life is just that, mine....

It's Been......

2008-03-26T22:23:00.002-05:00

A long time! I have been crazy busy. Christmas was great, although late in reporting it, LOL. I am still working on that trilogy, who know when it will be done. I haven been dealing with more crpa at work and always wonder why I am there, still, after all this time (Others have asked me the same thing). Man, I have just been so busy.

Crappy, Lucky Day....

2007-10-08T03:14:00.001-05:00

Man, I tell you, I suppose I am better off than most people, but it was a bad day. I was supposed to meet a friend of mine for gym and lunch. I got up too late to go to the gym, but I went to meet for lunch and he didn't show. No matter how many times I called. I know it's not his fault and that he has a life too, but it just sucked because we couldn't hang out.

Then, I hang out and watch football, getting lunch anyways. I get home to catch the highlights of my favorite football team and they get squashed by their opponent, bummer! Not too bad a problem though, right? The icing on the cake was when I go to get ready for the concert I was to attend tonight (Maroon 5 w/ The Hives) and I cant find my ticket. I look in the place where I keep all my upcoming concert tickets and as anyone would guess, all of them are there ACCEPT the show I am attending tonight! So I frantically search for about 40 minutes to no avail! So, as one would guess, I missed a great show (At least, it's my assumption, it was great!) Whats gonna suck even more is when/if I find that ticket, I guess all I can do is laugh about it now.

Why lucky, you ask? Well, I didn't end up dead, jobless, or homeless, so it turned out lucky after all....

Moving Right Along.....

2007-10-03T21:26:00.000-05:00

I have been hanging with a dear friend of mine, Chris and honestly, if it wasn't for him, I would have strangled someone by now. We hang out and go for drinks and grub once a week and those "sessions" help me out in life. The reason I say this is because likfe is one of those things that you look forward to things. Basically, give yourself something to look forward to, every day and/or every week.....

Also, I have been working on my new project, and I am so happy with the way it's going and I look forward to getting it out, hopefully sooner than expected. I am hoping to have a lot of changes in the upcoming year. With this blog, I hope to have it updated at least twice a week, so people will know where I am and what's going on.

Hmm, so check out a good movie and/or a good book and I will see y'all Sunday night, LOL!

Reel Cool.....

2007-09-29T23:25:00.000-05:00

Why "reel" you ask? I went and seen the new Halloween movie tonight! It was good! I have seen a few of Rob ZOmbie's movies and wasnt too impressed, but this movie was off the rockers! I know a few people didnt like it, but I thought it was cool!
Been working hard on my new series of books, so I am really excited about these ones. I am looking forward to releasing them real soon! Also, been looking here and there for the upcoming holiday season, never can be too early to shop, no?

Been Chillin'.....

2007-09-23T22:00:00.000-05:00

I went to see Genesis last night, for those of you that dont know, Genesis is a rock band from whence Peter Gabriel emerged, as well as Phil Collins, Dire Straits, and Mike & The Mechanics. Anyway, it was an amazing experience to say the lest and Phil was just crazy! If you got an extra 90-200 bucks laying around and you have nothing to do, go check them out, if they come to your town.

I have been chipping away like mad at this new trilogy of books I have coming out and I hope to have it out by 2010, hopefully earlier, but will let you know. If anyone has anything cool and/or funny or uplifting, please post it in the comments, I could use a good laugh!

Man, I'm Depressed......

2007-09-19T22:14:00.000-05:00

I am just in a funk today. I have no idea why, maybe its the weather change, maybe it's anticipating my next day off, man, I don't know. I just want to sleep for 24 hours, is that weird and then I will be more tired, LOL! I did have a good day today though!

Dumb Ass Geniuses........

2007-09-15T20:31:00.000-05:00

I tell you, it amazes me that people are intelligent enough to run a business, but treats the people who work for them like total crap. I got into it with a certain manager and for some reason he thinks he has a right to talk to whomever, however. Now, I can deal with that to an extent, but when I have a person on the back end "co-signing", that is to say just affirming from some situation he/she knows nothing about, see what I mean?

It just burns me up that people can talk to others in ways that, on the street would end them in a hospital or body bag. On a lighter note, I cant wait for Christmas (that was a joke)

Much Love.....

2006-12-28T12:31:00.000-06:00

Whaddup myspace.com & blogspot guys, gals, and gurus! I hope y'all had a fabulous Christmas, mine was off da chain! Now, it's back to the salt mines known as "da job" may as well make another guy rich, LOL! I, however am working on that trilogy fierce, for that 2010 deadline, wish me luck and much love!
I am not sure if any of you know, but my new book is out and availabe for your purchasing enjoyment. It's called Wishes And Dreams and you can get it on my site http://www.losdaddyenterprises.com for the cheapest price, but if you prefer a public reatailer it is also available at Barnes & Noble, Borders, and Amazon. *Also, feel free to request those free paper samples of all my books, that's awesome!
Enough about me, LOL, let's get to Christmas. I hope each and every one of you had a great Christmas (or at least a tolerable one, LOL). Hopefully we are all rested and can get back to the rat race and do it all again next year!

It's Out Now....

2006-12-05T20:58:00.000-06:00

My new book is out (finally) WIshes And Dreams is out in Hardcover and in 2 weeks paperback. So, look forward to that. I am gonna be M.I.A for a few years, working on this trilogy, but I will be dropping in periodically and delivering the freshness!

It's Finally Done...

2006-04-14T21:27:00.000-05:00

My new book, Wishes And Dreams is finally done. I am hoping to have it available for purchase in October, so if anyone is interested, go to my website! I will caution you that this new book is a little darker, but well worth any price you will pay for it. I am hoping to do more journal entries in the near future. I will also have new poetry brochures for the new book, either in October or November.

Can You Believe It...?

2005-12-01T21:38:00.000-06:00

I am finally posting something. No, I am not dead, and this is not a spirit, this is actually me. I have been working hard as hell on my new book and rest assured, I think it will be out late next year! (WooHoo). Also, I have been Christmas shopping, of course. To all who dont know me and think they do, I got y'all fake ass M/F's the same thing I got y'all last year, just a different color, so you can add it to your collection.
I have also been trying to get workouts in and such. Y 'know, trying to make myself healthier, as we get older, thats what we gotta do to stay up with the young'uns. I am sorry that I dont have any juicy news, but that's how life is somethimes, "juiceless"!

Rested....For Now...

2005-08-30T21:48:00.000-05:00

I have been chilling the last few days and collecting my thoughts. I have been off work, you see, but Monday night, I watched a cool football game, but my team, The Detroit Lions got beat, but hey, it's only preseason, I'm rooting for you boys!
I went and say the movie Hustle & Flow on Sunday, it was a decent movie.
I am also in the painstaking process of Christmas shopping, thats gonna take some doing. I just have to make aure that I stay focused.
Now, all I have to do is stay focused and get my book done.

Busy As A Mutha (Beep)!

2005-08-25T22:14:00.000-05:00

I have been sooo busy with writing my new book and going to shows and such that I really havent had time to actually sit down and colect my thought. I apologize to you "Los Daddy" fans and I will try and update more often for your viewing pleasure.
I am still in the process of finishing my next book and I really dont know when it will be done, I guess I have to wait until inspiration hits me. I have been working like mad to save for Christmas, never can be too early to save for that flava. Also, I am trying to slim down a little and have been hiting the gym like crazy, hopefully, I can accomplish my fitness goals in the "near-distant" future..lol. Truthfully, my life hasnt been all that interesting and no controversy had abounded, (thank God). I am just moving on and hopefully getting back to where I have to be.

Mentally Drained......

2005-08-08T21:58:00.000-05:00

Man, I am mentally drained. I got into a stupid argument with this customer Sunday and it just made me so mad! I mean, true enough, it was my fault, but it's just the way people talk to each other, it really is sickening! What's worse is the way younger people talk to older people. I mean, is there any more respect in the world?
I guess I can look forward to upcoming things like concerts and christmas and such. I try to look on the brighter things in life when I can, but sometimes, people just piss me off!! True, I am sure anyone reading this could give a shit about respect, but that is a shame! I mean, I guess, just kill them with kindness and just move on. At least, I can save sanity that way. My stress is only caused by what is on my job, so why should I even have to worry about that stuff, no?

Back Again...

2005-07-31T21:36:00.000-05:00

I am back, finally recuperated from The Gathering Of The Juggalos. I had a great time, of course, I got back on July 25, but am just now writing. I had so much fun and was able to do stuff there that I couldnt last year and get certain autographs and seminars in that I couldnt last year, so it was cool.

Work is going fine, just exhausting myself with working out and such, that I had to take a break, but I can see the effects of that...lol. Luckily for me, I didn't gain too much weight at the gathering, considering all the junk food, I had been eating, but trying to fit in lots of sleep! I have ben very tired lately and neglecting my book, something awful, so God knows when it will be finished.

So, I am jsut working, trying to make it and get things done, if there are any major developemnts in my life, rest assured, you will find them here first, until, next time!

Long Stretch Ahead......

2005-07-12T21:38:00.000-05:00

Today was my day off, now I have to wait another...8 days and then I get 5 off for my glorious vacation and the event that I have been waiting for since last year....The Gathering Of The Juggalos. This will be an event to unwind, relax and even get a little crazy, if I want to. I feel that I have deserved this long awaited vacation. I just can't wait to get settled in and start shoppping and hanging...with...family.

I almost got stomped in a crowd last year and I hope that this year is not a repeat...LOL.

Yo Yo Yo & Whaddup.....

2005-07-11T00:37:00.000-05:00

I have been busy with work. It seems that all I do is work be it at the gym or my job, it is all work, just the same. I just wish that I could sleep for a week, lol. My life at this point isn't really all that exciting, but I give myself some things to look forward too, such as The Gathering or Christmas, but nonetheless, my life moves on.

I went to a Peabo Bryson concert Saturday and it was fun. I really enjoyed jamming out and having a little picnic, it was relaxing and fun.

Almost There.....

2005-07-05T22:00:00.000-05:00

I am almost to one of my self appointed vacations. I take 2 a year. One for The Gathering Of The Juggalos and one for Christmas. They are 6 months apart, so that gives me time to recoup from partying, LOL.

I am at a crossroads with writing too. I mean, I would love to get paid to do what I love. Although, if I got paid to write, I think it would take the fun and creativity out of it. I have been so busy that I need to relax, even though things have to get done.

I had a good 4th of Jly and had a BBQ. It was fun and just relaxing.

Moving Right Along.....

2005-06-07T21:51:00.000-05:00

I have been busy, but I am trying to save for my trip. My book is taking up lots of my time and I have also been very tired lately ...

Another Place In Time....

2005-05-23T23:15:00.000-05:00

I have been trying to relax. It seesm that I am constantly busy. I just wish that I could take a whole day and just sleep. I have lots of stuff to do and am swamped daily. Do I feel sorry for myself? I hope not, because that would give me more stuff to worry about....

Lots Happening.....

2005-05-21T23:07:00.000-05:00

I have been very busy these days. I have a job, but I also contribute to a Juggalo fansite, plus I am working on my next book and going to shows, so I have not had time to update. I will try and make it regular as possible. I am also hoping to contribute to a few friends who rap & sing, trying to get their CDs finished. I really hope we can get a CD out in the next few months or so.

I'm Sorry For....

2005-05-11T22:30:00.000-05:00

I know it has been a confusing time for all who have been trying to find me. I have been sooo busy. I have also had computer woes and couldn't get to a computer for awhile, so that is why,no posts. I hope to have a new computer by August, but this one is doing well, so look forward to more posts.

I went through a period of emotional and spiritual unrest. I guess I had to be by myself and pray alot, so please forgive me for that. I hope to keep regular posts from now, forward.

There isnt too much going on, just been chilling, trying to finish my book, also, working like crazy and I also go the gym 5 days a week for about 3 hours a day. I have also been saving and planning for my vacation, so just to let y'all know, I am back in the house.

The Depression Era......

2005-03-06T21:13:00.000-06:00

I am so excited about my upcoming activities, that it makes my problems seem so minute. I just get so depressed sometimes at work, that I really don't want to be there. With a selected few people who actually make it bearable. Truly, if it wasn't for them, I dont know what I would do. I mean, I have a few coworkers who are just plain annoying! It's not that they try to be, it's just their natural demeanor.

However, I think about my bills, my goals, and my projects and I truly realize that I really don't have any problems. Honestly, I think, mentally, I make my own problems. I shouldn't worry if people are at odds with me, because, if I wrong someone, an apology, is definitely in order. On the other hand, even if I am right and no one wants to accept my apolgy, then why should I fight that? Screw that, let them deal with their own baggage.

I just can't wait for The Gathering Of The Juggalos 2005, which promises to be a better gathering, all year around, no doubt! I need to blow off some steam and the Gathering, is the best place to do that! I also, have to work on my book and continue my workouts, so that I stay busy, focused, and aware.

Moving Right Along.......

2005-02-20T22:35:00.000-06:00

I am just waiting for a day off, which for me, is this Tuesday. However, today, I was relaxing. I didnt do a heavy workout at the gym and there was no controversy at work, just a long borish day that I wished that I could have stayed asleep for. Although, I did get paid for doing virtually nothing, because it was so dead at work. I have been slacking on my writng today, but, I know that is something that has to come naturally.

So, I have been real busy, planning my festivities for the summer. I am trying to make myself some traditions and memories. So far, I have 3, which are The Columbus Urban League: Black & White Gala, The Ohio State Fair & The Gathering Of The Juggalos. I really hope to have fun and remember alot of thngs about these events in the future.

Anticpating the Summer.....

2005-02-19T23:04:00.000-06:00

I cant wait for the festivities of summer. The dates for this year's gathering of the juggalos has been posted and tickets go on sale on my birthday. I cannot wait for that, it will be so cool. I have other plans, but of course, it all costs money. So, I am a poor schlub who has to work!

Valentine's day...

2005-02-14T22:02:00.000-06:00

It is Valentine's Day, so I must say something schmoozy and clumsy, right? Wrong! I celebrated my Valentine earlier this week. I skipped amateur night tonight, it was just a showcase show and I was extremely tired for some reason, so I just chilled at home.

One Of Those Things......

2005-02-08T22:10:00.000-06:00

I have been chilling and relaxing. I spent Saturday and Sunday hanging with Carrie and watching the Super Bowl,it was great! I worked of course, but then, I had yesterday and today off and just ran errands. So, I suppose I was busy, but I wasn't stressed.

Lucky Times......

2005-02-04T22:37:00.000-06:00

My favorite artist(s) just added a tour to my city and I am going. I cant wait, it will be cool. I am hearing tons of bellyaching from the idiots at work, that I just want to punch them in the head. What's new? I just want to chill out soon with some needed time off....

Its Nuts Man......

2005-02-02T23:12:00.000-06:00

I tell you, it's all crazy. First, my computer works and then it doesnt, then it works, then doesnt...I think that it may be possessed. I just found out that one of my favorite rappers doing a tour, doesnt seem to be stopping by Columbus, however, they said they will be adding more dates soon and I cant wait.

I havent been fervently trying to get this book done, to no avail and I just want to take some time and work on it, but I have been so crazy busy, but I hope to get back on it real soon.

Whew....Doggies.....

2005-01-26T21:59:00.000-06:00

.....as Granny would say. I have been just chillin' like a villain on penicillin! I spent the last few days trying to get my head together, that my apartment is a mess. I am trying to sort out a whole mess of stuff and needing to clear my head to make some personal projects happen.

I have been watching the new season of American Idol and there are some bad singers on there....worse than last year, I am afraid. I have maybe seen only 12 go through, out of about...a few thousand???? We may be in for the long haul, Idol fans.

Sort of in the dumps a little too. I mean, I am fine when I work, go to the gym, or what have you. I get very excited on most Mondays because I have Tuesdays and Wednesdays off, but I get really depressed on Wednesday nights. I have to go back to work, you see. The job is easy, but the constant bickering and whining and backstabbing is starting to get to me. Luckily for me, I am not involved in the madness, but just listening to it, makes me want to go insane.

I will definitely be happy when the Gathering Of The Juggalos comes around.

I'm Back....

2005-01-23T22:28:00.000-06:00

Guess who's back, back again.....oops, wrong guy. I am back. I hopefully figured out the snafu with my computer and hope to drop more info on my life for all in this wonderful year. I am gonna be working hard all year to accomplish my goals and hopefully, my friends will be there to catch me if I fall or pull me down if I am getting too high. I am just trying to stay busy and get my personal projects finished.

Disconnected..

2005-01-21T15:29:00.000-06:00

My computer finally died. I have had it since 1998 (7 years) I have had to replace the modem, monitor, and printer. However, I persevered. Now, it has totally died and I have to save up for a new one. Fear not, you will see me weekly, but if all goes well, I can get enough from a tax return to get a new one, so look for me in cyberspace!

And Tonight......

2005-01-15T23:22:00.000-06:00

I have been very tired lately, busy, but tired. I have been working out madly at the gym and trying to get myself ready for the upcoming festivities this summer. I know it's a while off, but I have to think ahead. I really can't wait to go this year's juggalo gathering. That's where ICP fans can get together for 4 days of fun and concerts! I also go to the Ohio State Fair, so I hope they have some good acts there. Also, there is a tour lined up (Psychopathic All Stars) that I cant wait for dates to be announced.

I am fervishly trying to get my new book done for a December release, I really hope that I can, but it requires lots and lots of thinking, rest, and reflection. Then, on top of all my projects, I have to do the dreaded job thang! You know, help make some other poor schmuck rich, what a drag, lol. Much props to my man, Violent J AKA Joe Bruce for becoming a father for the first time on January 7, 2005, much love and prayers to you homie! I hope to see you real soon!

I am also anticipating my next days off, because I have lots goin' on. Amateur Night will be "DA BOMB-DIGGITY". Anyways, just rambling, now I have to do what I love best and that is......SLEEP!

Ouch....

2005-01-13T22:50:00.000-06:00

Today wasn't too bad of a day. I worked out and got sore from that, but I have been having this splitting headache all day and now, it has gotten worse. I have taken some aspirin and it is still throbbing. I guess it is all the projects that I have going on. We have some stupid inspection going on at work and I have to deal with everyone being frantic over the whole thing, it's just nuts!

Now......

2005-01-12T22:10:00.000-06:00

It's been two relaxing days and now I have the long week of waiting to where I agonize for another day off. Also, there has been something bugging me about a friend of mine. He got in trouble on his job and we were supposed to work together that day and he didnt show up. In spite of that, now all of us at work are prone to unreasonable "disciplines" I am afraid. On a lighter note with that is, what's the worst that can happen with a job is that you get fired, especially a job like the one that I have.

I have been feeling on edge lately, partly because I need a job to pay bills and I have some plans in the work for summer which require me to have a little money socked away, so I have to put up with some crap, in order to get my proverbial flower, see what I mean? Also, I have been experiencing an bad case of writer's block and I must say that it is emotionally painful. I need to relax, I would suppose.

I just can't wait until next Monday, Amateur Night, you see, to relax to some comedy.

Busy....Tired...Weary....

2005-01-10T01:25:00.000-06:00

I have been busy as of late, that I have to keep myself entertained. I have found it beneficial to escape into watching the TV series MASH on DVD. It is a great escape from reality and I find myself sympathizing with the characters at times. Strange, huh? Also, I use that as a creative outlet to give me inspiration for my new book, whenever it will be finished, I'll never know...Sometimes, I find myself depressed and wondering as to what will really happen to me in the near or distant future for that matter.

I mean, I am working out like crazy trying to stay healthy and find myself worrying about the future. Is this what's called a midlife crisis? I hope not. People who go through that are emotionally inept, to say the least. I mean, we all get old and Lord willing will live comfortable lives into our senior years, but sometimes, I worry about that for myself too. I just dont want to be one of those poor schmucks who work into their 70s or 80s only to have greedy family members take it all away and leave them with nothing.

I suppose that prayers is always a soothing part of life. I wouldn't say that I am a very spiritual person, but it never hurts to have an angel in your corner.

In for another.......

2005-01-05T20:58:00.000-06:00

I am back to the salt mines tomorrow. I have been chilling out and loving it! Now, I gotta go back to work. I didn't get too much work done, but that's OK, sometimes, I need whole days off....

Yep.......

2005-01-04T23:38:00.000-06:00

Just a chillout day, so far. I didnt do much of anything today except watch the funny ass Purple Show by Twiztid. It is so funny, I cant wait for volume 2, coming out soon! I am happy about one thing, amateur night at the Funny Bone comedy club is starting back next week and I can't wait to get there. It really relaxes me and some of them are actually funny!

Almost There.......

2005-01-02T22:27:00.000-06:00

I have one more day until a day off. I have just been working and trying to get on with this funny thing called life. Today was a good day, I mean, it was quiet at work. That's one reason I don't mind working weekends, because it is more relaxed on weekends. However, I do like to take the "occasional" weekend off to myself. So far, this year is just that...this year....lol.

It's that time...

2004-12-31T23:33:00.000-06:00

It's that time of year again, where we make promises we wont keep, ammendments we will break, and go deeper in debt. My only wish is to come out on top....

Frustrated.....

2004-12-30T22:02:00.000-06:00

My "high" from Christmas was extremely short lived. Now, I am hearing nothing but bellyaching and contentment at work. It's like one minutes people are nice and 2 seconds later, polar opposite. Man, it just makes me angry that I need a job so bad that I have to put up with ignorant people who wake up in the morning to go to a job that they hate. I am so appalled by that, it makes me want to punch them in the head!

On a lighter note, I am sore from the gym. I have really been working hard to slim down. from my diet to mad cardio to just working with trainers, it really is a challenge. I am determined to get back into shape! I'm not doing too bad. All in all, I should be thankful for what I have. It just frustrates me that there are obstacles "determined" to get in my way.

Hi Ho Hi Ho, It's BACK to work, I go.....

2004-12-28T22:02:00.000-06:00

Well, it wasn't meant to last (LOL). I am one of those miserable SOBs that actually have to work for a living. I really did enjoy my days off. Watching TV, cleaning, and sleeping. However, there comes a time when I have to get back to reality, folks, and tomorrow is it. I'm cool with it though. I had a TREMENDOUS holiday and really enjoyed myself. The only turmoil in my life as of now is the fact that I need to get this book done.....

Chill.....

2004-12-28T00:40:00.000-06:00

My Christmas was great and I relaxed alot. I have tomorrow off and will relax some more. Although, I did say a prayer for all the people in the world who didn't have such a great Christmas. My heart goes out to all those people and this Christmas, I realized that there are A LOT of people less fortunate than me, so I prayed for them. I was very happy to see the look on the children's faces and know that they were happy with their things.

I also chatted with a few friends who were going through bad times this season and I did the best I could do and consoled them. Thankfully, all was appreciated and sometimes, that's enough for Christmas for some people. Truly, that is one of the things that inspired me this Christmas, that people can be content and happy with what society perceives as nothing and that makes me realize how lucky I really am.

Kewl Christmas.....

2004-12-25T00:06:00.000-06:00

My Christmas so far is awesome. I am so enjoying chilling out and I get to do it again tomorrow. Truthfully, I cant express my gratitude for the blessing bestowed on me for any and everyone who has come into my life and enriched it with their grace and gratitude. I am also happy and thankful that the children in my life are truly happy and content with the gifts I have given them and would do it again, in a heartbeat!

One Down....One To Go....

2004-12-23T23:06:00.000-06:00

I cant wait until tomorrow, then I am off for 4 glorious days. Relaxin' and watchin' sports are definitely on the agenda. I am gonna chill, like I have never chilled before! Hopefully, work tomorrow, will be like today. The power went out at work and we sat around for a few hours, aside from having to salt the walk and shovel a little snow, it was cake!

I gave Carrie her amp thing she wanted for Christmas already and she loved it. I just didnt want to lug it home, just to give it to her and bring it back. Truthfully, I really dont want to go to work tomorrow, but it has to be done.

Good Day....

2004-12-22T22:30:00.000-06:00

Today was a good day. I got a few projects done and got an early Christmas present, Twiztid's : Purple Show Vol. 1. I was very happy about that. It is very funny. Truthfully, I plan on relaxing and taking it easy. I mean, even when I have a day off from work, I still am very busy. However, when I go out of town, that is what I call relaxation. Not having to worry about work and work related crap.

I have just been on edge lately. I have no idea why, just stressed over dumb stuff. Also, trying to get my book done, but suffering from a bad case of writer's block. A friend once told me that writer's block can be painful, but now I know what he meant. Although, I shouldn't be stressed about that, should I?

I called my nieces tonight. They got their Christmas presents and I am happy for that. I love those 2 babies (although, they aren't babies, 10, now) I am just happy to see that they are happy with their Christmas gifts. I am dreading the next 2 days, but I will perservere.

Anticipating......

2004-12-21T23:38:00.000-06:00

I'm chillin' and enjoying a few days off before Christmas. I have been trying to do some daily chores and such. I am very happy to have my shopping done. I just want time to relax and just reflect on how truly lucky I am. I have come to the realization that there are some people now, who have worse problems than I do and I have to pray for them, throught this season.

With that being said, I will enjoy myself for Christmas.......

Inch By Inch....

2004-12-19T23:06:00.000-06:00

Day by day, I am awaiting my days off for the holiday. I have Tuesday & Wednesday off this week and I will be able to get some house cleaning done, before I have to leave for the holiday. Allbeit, long over due, cleaning. I finally got Megan & Morgan's Christmas gifts shipped, so I hope that they will be happy with them.

Crazy Day.....

2004-12-18T23:22:00.000-06:00

Today was a messed up day. I mean, things at work went OK, but this girl I worked with had the nerve to slap me in the face, just on a whim. Then about an hour later, did it again! I was so furious that she did this. I was even more furious that nothing was done about it! I cant believe she did that. For no reason at all!!! Then, I go to the gym and get every part of my body stretched, pulled, and "beat up", just to get back into shape, so needless to say, I am literally sore all over.

Which brings me to my "agonizing for a day off" cry. I have Tuesday & Wednesday off, I also have Saturday off next week, coincidentally, that's when Christmas falls on, but I am anxiously waiitng to find out about the 3 days after. I just feel that I need a break from reality, if only for a few days, see? I just want to relax for a few days and not have to worry about responsiblities.

Tired......

2004-12-17T22:54:00.000-06:00

I can't wait for a day off.....lol. I have lots to do. Dont we all? I am a slight depressed because I am trying to finish my book and I dont seem to have the time. For some reason, I dont seem to have the time to work on personal projects, but with the crazy time of year like this, I can see why. I guess I can be happy anyways, because I have it alot better than 51% of most people.

Cool Days......

2004-12-16T22:17:00.000-06:00

Today was OK, just went to work and went to the gym. I am having a hard time staying awake when I get home though and usually fall alsleep for an hour or two. I am still trying to get a little work on my book, but that's about it!

Moving Right Along......

2004-12-15T22:48:00.000-06:00

I am still working and doing my "thang"!!! I can't wait for Christmas, it will be my best Christmas, I think. I will relax of course and SLEEP!! I am also going to try and work on my book some more.

Closer & Closer......

2004-12-14T22:43:00.000-06:00

Christmas is almost here, I can just feel the days off..abounding!!! I hope to have a decent Christmas and I feel that I will. I have been scrimping and saving. I also got a cool Christmas gift from my Juggalo Homie, Neil! It is Twiztid's Born Twiztid DVD and it is awesome for a down juggalo like myself (Thanks Neil!)

I also have to send my nieces' Christmas presents and I know they will like them. So far, things are going smooth at work and I am still in the process of finishing my book, hopefully, it will be done for a 2005 release, fingers crossed!

Busy Days.......

2004-12-12T23:58:00.000-06:00

I had gone to see a Jordan Knight show yesterday and it was cool. Unfortunately for me, I didnt have money for the backstage party, but it was a cool show nontheless. Tonight, I went to another concert, Michael W. Smith/Points Of Grace/Katinas and I loved that show as well. I have been going to alot of shows to try and get inspired to write. I am working on my new book and have come to a sort of crossroads and it is really depressing.

Slowly, but surely, I am getting this Christmas shopping done. I hope to have a relaxing Christmas. I have been a little depressed, as of late. I have no idea why, Just in sort of a depressed mood.

Christmas "Jitters"......

2004-12-08T22:18:00.000-06:00

I have been poking away at my Christmas shopping. It is going surprisingly well. I am "quasi"-finished. I had the last few days off and did pretty much of nothing, just lounged around and did a little cleaning. I haven't had too much on my mind, I guess that is great, no? There are some odds and ends, that I have to take care of before Christmas, but I shouldn't have a problem with that. I just hope that everything goes well this Christmas and I can accomplish my financial goal by next summer.

Sorry.......

2004-12-07T23:22:00.000-06:00

I know it has been a little while. I have been working on new material and also working with the yahoo group for my homeboy Jarrard Anthony (you go boy!!) I have also been busting my butt at work, trying to make a little cheddar, so I can do bigger things in my life......lol. Lucky for me, I haven't had anything on my mind that is too dramatic. Except for the minor squabbles over nothing.

Cool, Calm, & Busy.......

2004-11-27T00:37:00.000-06:00

I am relaxing on my day(s) off, trying to recuperate from all that turkey. I went and saw The Incredibles tonight. It was a cute movie. I have also been working on new material.

Happy Thankgiving!!

2004-11-26T01:05:00.000-06:00

I hope everyone out there is/was/will be having a happy thanksgiving. I am having a cool time. Dinner was great. Unfortunately, I watched my favorite football team the Detroit Lions get TROUNCED by the Indianapolis Colts. Man, they beat those boys like they stole something! Other than that, my Thanksgiving was excellent because I have ALOT to be thankful for.

Over the next few days, I plan to rest and relax, but thats about it.

Slowly, but surely......

2004-11-19T22:29:00.000-06:00

I am agonizingly inching my way towards Thanksgiving weekend. I have 5 more days and then I am off for 3, I cant wait. 3 days of just chillin', watching football, and getting my grub on. Man, I am so excited now, imagine what I will feel like, come Wednesday night!
Other than that, I am just trying to stay out of trouble and plugging away at my next book.

Quirky.....

2004-11-18T21:27:00.000-06:00

I have added a "logo" store to my site. It has various merchndise with my logo on it and pictures of my books. I have funny things like mugs, mousepads, magnets.....I was going to put thongs on there, but I thought that may be overdoing it. It is just something new I am trying. Hopefully, it catches on.

I am trying to tough out this week long schedule that I have. My next day off isnt for another week, but then after, I am off for 3 glorious days. Also, trying to get a little Christmas shopping done. Lately, all I have been thinking about is sleeping, is that strange? I dont really have alot going right now, huh?

Rested.....For Now...

2004-11-16T22:04:00.000-06:00

Today was relaxing. Not having to worry about the crazy things at work was very peaceful. I caught up on my sleep, as well. I have been trying to get my next book done, to no avail. I hope it can be done real soon. Hopefully, I will have more news to post in my Yahoo Group, was well.

Chillin'

2004-11-15T23:34:00.000-06:00

I didnt do much of anything today. Just lounged around, but I did watch Monday Night football. The Philadelphia Eagles whipped The Dallas Cowboys royally. I thought that was great! I have been trying to finish my next book, but am coming up with a terrible case of writer's block. Hopefully, it will pass.

Late Nite!

2004-11-15T00:44:00.000-06:00

Tonight was great. I went to a comedy show and saw some old friends, it was great. I am grateful to be having the next few days off to chill. I am trying to recuperate from a long, stressful week of work.

It's Been Awhile........

2004-11-09T23:42:00.000-06:00

Hello all,

I know it has been awhile. As you can see, I changed journals, so that took some time. I have been very busy with work, my next book, and some internal problems, that I have had alot on my plate, as of late. Rest assured, that now, I am back.
I dont really have anything to report. I am trying to get people to check out my poetry and hopefully, I can get to reading or two, in the near future. Aside from dealing with this one asshole, I work with, everything else in my life is great, but after all, what is a life without excitement?